Dilly dallying

and wandering are highly underrated activities. as much as i like planning i equally enjoy not having an itinerary. it's freeing to just be able to go without a destination or thought of time. it's partly why my trip earlier this year was so great. m and i would just roll outta bed and start walking. rarely with a destination in mind. just walked until we wanted to stop somewhere. i didn't even wear a watch for most of that month unless we had to catch a flight/bus. this weekend was kinda like that and i relished it. luckily i was with ppl who could also appreciate the aimlessness and were equally non-committal to anything else. the bonus was that it was a beautiful night in the big city so we just ended up hopping around to the bars with outdoor seating along smith st. did yet another scorpion bowl. still gross after all these years. anyway, i just wanted to say it was freeing, relaxing, and a nice change of pace for this control freak. ;)

onward to a week of virgo bdays! happy happy! love you much.

The wisdom that is...SATC

"I love you too Richard but I love me more."

Just watched SATC with my seriously addicted, of course she didn't catch the fever til after the show ended, roommate. In any case, what a great quote right? It's a nice slap in the face to whoever the offender is, poignant, and sometimes (dammit) you have to put yourself first. Something I've never been too good at. You figure you're born the way you are for a reason right? Everything should work coming out of the showroom, shouldn't it? Maybe. Maybe not. I guess it depends, sometimes it's your environment and the people around you that force you to change whether it's conscious or not. I think it may all be situational. You wouldn't change if there wasn't a need to would you? We're all need-based creatures after all. The things we need change from person to person but the innate instinct is the same. So at that moment, Samantha realized that while she needed Richard (in whatever way), she recognized that she needed to be personally fulfilled first and foremost. Yay Samantha! Yes yes, laugh away that I'm making SATC so deep but it provoked the aforementioned thought.

awhile

it has been. just haven't had the time. so much going on right now between work and life. plus birthday season is coming up and they are always some of the closest of friends who have bdays in sept. i ain't really complainin' tho. i've got it sweet. i've got awesome friends, great interests, and i've done most of what i've wanted to do this summer. it's characteristic of me to overbook myself so i shouldn't be shocked that i'm so effing busy. but honestly i'd rather be busy than bored.

it's interesting bc i always thought i had so much to write but honestly unless i have an observation of some sort i only write when i'm in turmoil and that's pretty rare for someone as even tempered as me. i'm fairly introspective as it is, so there's really no need to jot things down. but i will whenever the fancy strikes me, especially when i want to post stats about the ppl in my life.

i saw Feist last night and i really really do like her. i think she has an awesome voice that sounds as good live as it does on record. rare these days since everything is electronically enhanced. blah.

m and i also got tix to kelly clarkson, i loved her first album, cheesy as that may be. and whoever said i'm not cheesy obv didn't know me well. i can't wait. debating about Bebel again, not sure i really like Webster Hall as a venue plus it's right in the middle of bday extravaganza month.

speaking of sept, it's almost time to go to the lake again, so exciting. i love it, so much fun. it'll be a diff group this time. it'll be different yet hysterically fun.

then of course, there's the wedding. the big big wedding. very exciting yet also very intimidating. i'm the maid, i need a speech. ahhh. unda pressure. oh well, it's a good kinda pressure.

Fake Beach!

Here I come. Heading to the Brooklyn Bridge Park "Beach" should be interesting. Who cares, just need some sun.

Had an intense convo last night that was cathartic and exceptionally worthwhile, helped me sort ish out. T'was awesome.

Am on 4 hours of sleep, hope I make it to Timberlake without conking out.

Am absolutely in love with Justin Timberlake (diff from above). He's such a great performer. So what if his show is completely rehearsed and without spontaneity? SO talented.

Am still continuously in love with Madonna. Don't worry Madge, I'll never leave you.

Am desperately in love with my friends...

Am disgustingly excited to see Mr. Taylor even though I'm too tired to REALLY express it.

- 'Cuz I ain't no Harlem black girl.'

A New Motto

I think will be, work hard play harder. Now while most of you think I couldn't possibly play harder, I believe the possibility is out there. I'm working harder than ever and I feel BAHOOBA coming out soon and she's ready for a rampage. In case you haven't caught on BAHOOBA is my Hyde, though she's not a misanthrope, she just gets a lil crazy now and again. Those who have seen her can attest. But really what's the point of working hard unless there's a light at the end of the tunnel? A release. A point where you can sigh and escape until it starts up again. One day I'll have kids and a spouse to be the 'light' but for now it's ME. DAMMIT. Look out NYC!

god I'm such a cheeseball. how do you deal with me? :)

Summer

Is flying by and I've only been to the beach once! What a tragedy. Work is tough right now but it just makes me more determined to enjoy my damn weekends! Say it with me people.

Worky MacWorkington

Today was an important day career-wise, at least I think so. I've signed on to be the interim editor at a lifestyle portal since the current (amazing) Senior Editor is leaving for another position E.O.D. tomorrow. From what I can see, she's been a 1-woman army there for the last few years and I'm a little, more than a little intimidated. The prospect of the new is exciting and I think once I get into it (and make a few mistakes) I'll be okay. It's just something that has come out of left field since they only mentioned it to me last Wednesday. I also, know that this company isn't the quickest at hiring replacements, which is frightening in that I can be there for awhile. On the other hand maybe it's my chance to stake my claim and get in on the inside. I dunno, I'll have to see what transpires at the meeting tomorrow morning and I guess I'll have a better idea. The thought of having some freedom is intriguing as well. Like my predecessor said, "you must've done something right to get here." We'll see my friend. We'll see.